The “Nectars” I Feel When I Return

I thought today I would talk about what I’m seeing happening in India, because this is quite close to my heart. One of the things that I have been talking to a lot of people about is how in India and across South Asia more broadly, there are “nectars” in the air. It’s really beautiful—it’s incredible, actually, coming from the West to India and feeling how there is more support for the body to be natural.

I call it “nectars in the air,” but really, it is that incredible naturalness, heartfulness, warmth, and connectivity. It’s a richness that is an experience in the body. Especially when I have interactions with people of a generation before me, their bodies embody this; they have substances like heat and warmth. They have the nectars that nourish us on all levels.

The Richness We Don’t Know We Have

To back up a little bit: who we actually are, our real selves, consists of our Being—the absolute, our individuated self—which is often considered our spirit or a higher self, and Essence. Essence is made up of qualities of Being, such as love, joy, peace, passion, and sweetness. These qualities are actually substances in our body. They are essential substances that we can experience if we are conscious.

When we have them in our bodies, it is an integral part of being human. Without them, our ego tries to mimic all those qualities, but it doesn’t have the capacity to actually live them.

People in India have these essential substances—it’s natural, especially for the generation before me. It’s fading, though. It’s less natural for the generations after me, depending on circumstances, but it is really fading.

So, this is my reality as I come to India. I feel like my body feels more natural. Access to substances is a lot easier because we get affected by what’s around us. We are not isolated. Even if we feel isolated, even if we feel like we’re not spending time with other people, we’re not isolated. We get affected by other people’s energies around us.

So even if I spend all of my time indoors and don’t go anywhere in the West, it’s not like, “Oh, I’m not going to get affected at all.” It’s just like it’s in the air. The lack of nectars is in the air. So I come to India, I experience incredible nectars. It’s really beautiful. It’s so human. There’s so much richness.

At the same time it is really difficult to see that actually people have embodied it but that embodiment hasn’t come to their consciousness. The embodiment of these qualities show up to a certain degree in culture and how people interact. Because what our bodies experience effects our hearts and our minds. Yet, one of the things that I’m noticing is that people’s egos are in a different place – unaware of how their bodies are nourishing them and the mind may be saying the exact opposite.

There isn’t the consciousness of what’s in their body. It’s like you have the gift. You’re accessing some of it, but nobody is really home to really enjoy it. To really live from it, means to let go of ego identification. People don’t know who they really are. It’s difficult to see how much people identify with the egos even though they have incredible substances flowing through their bodies.

Why We Are Losing This Inheritance

Part of it is of course what happened due to British colonialism — when the British colonized India, not only did they take the physical richness away — the legacy of the British colonization was to take away the richness that was traditionally embodied. And they left instead a feeling – an inferiority complex.

This inferiority complex shows up in “I can’t hold on to my language”, “I can’t hold on to my culture”, “I can’t hold on to my clothing”, “I can’t hold on to the richness of who I am”. “I cannot, I won’t because it’s lower class”. So I really want to highlight that this is what the British did and this is being perpetuated unconsciously in the country.

The other thing is of course westernization which is happening throughout the world and has been happening for a long time. And so that is also catching up to the drying away of the bodies and to the letting go of the richness, to the loss of something that has been a gift that needs to be retrieved consciously. It really needs to be retrieved consciously otherwise it will be lost.

Wounds, Pride, and Turning Away from Ourselves

One of the other things that I’ve noticed is that one of the reasons why people are turning away from their inner richness is because of wounds and hurts. So, I’ve been talking about this a lot and I think I’ve talked about it with other people and on podcasts etc., which is that when we have wounds, instead of being able to put the wound where it belongs, we start to attack our richness.

We start to attack who we really are, our humanness, our spirituality. We start to attack that. Again, I just want to name this is happening unconsciously and it is creating a lot of damage. I feel compelled to write this as a warning because I have been talking with people about the richness and I get so much resistance in response to this that I feel like it’s time for a warning here, otherwise no one is listening.

So what happens? I want to explain that what happens when we have our wounds and this is universal. This is really universal. This is human nature sadly is that when we have wounds, when we have suffered which we all have in our lives, we turn away from our real selves. We turn away from our richness. We turn away from really what sustains us, what makes us resilient. We start to fight it.

And it’s not easy to find your way back. I think if you’ve listened to my videos, I never make it easy. It’s not easy to find your way back. It’s a path. And the layer on top of the wounds is pride. Pride because we are now in a battle. We are in a battle with God or higher being or universe for the hurts that we have.

And that pride can be like, “Oh, I’ve turned away. I don’t believe in these things. Oh, I don’t need this. Oh, I’ve done the best that I can. You know, I look at I really work on being a good human being. I’m there.” It’s a layer of pride that is covering deep woundedness which is covering our richness.

So if you think of it as a well, you know, you’re not going to find the water overflowing on top. You have to we have to dig. You have to find the water. You have to do that work to find your richness to live it. And sometimes people, you know, the ego will say, “I can’t do it.”

I can’t help but say – to hell with the ego. Because we get misled by our identification with it so much that we don’t see what we are losing. Now, I know it’s not easy to see the ego. Or feel our woundedness that the ego is “protecting” us from feeling. Yet, this is so needed. 

A Warning—and an Invitation

I’m going to give a little story here. I don’t recall the story exactly, but I’m going to give it because I think people really can get something from stories. Once there was a master walking with a disciple and they were walking along and they were just talking and connecting. They were walking doing their thing and then out of nowhere they see this man who is sleeping there and the master picks up the stick and beats the man really hard. He just keeps beating him, beating him, beating him – a lot and really hard. And then continue to walk along.

The disciple says to the master, “Why are you beating this man? Because of no reason. What are you doing this for?” This disciple is like really confused, doesn’t understand, is questioning what is this person who is a master, a guru, a higher being doing? What is wrong with them? And the master says that man in his sleep had swallowed a snake and I had to beat him in order for him to get the snake out. Otherwise, he would have died.

So this is what I’m saying now – a warning to become aware of the ego to start with, “Oh my gosh, is what she is saying right? Is what she is saying, could it be the truth?” Am I curious enough to find out? Am I curious enough to open up my mind enough to try something that reclaims my richness? Because this is a huge barrier. Can I open my mind up enough to be curious? Can I open my mind up enough to experiment? Can I open my mind up enough to listen? If not, this warning might be gone, but there is something much bigger coming.

What’s coming is that people will become dry and empty. Coming from a place of richness when we go through that transition to dry and empty is very difficult. It is one hell after another. We’ll go unconscious about the hells but we will see issues. We will not be unperturbed. We will see issues when that happens. This is a warning. But that is the laws of the universe. The laws of the universe are that this richness will be gone and there will be really not much to sustain life.

We will have a lot of issues as a result of this—physical health issues, mental health issues. There’s going to be all kinds of things because we’re already seeing a rise in all of that. We are already seeing it because we are so identified with our egos.

This was a strong message, but I hope that it was helpful to at least reach someone who feels like, “Oh my gosh, I do want to open up. I don’t want to live my life in unhappiness. I don’t want to have a variety of issues that I can actually do something about.” I have it in me to have a life that my soul wants to have. I have it in me to make the effort for that.

It is already a gift. You already have the gift. You already have it in your body, in your DNA. It’s up to you to cultivate it or to lose it. Your choice, your life, your consequences.

South Asians in the West

What’s interesting is that I have seen something different for many South Asians in the West, because they are out of the nectars of India (South Asia). Being out of the nectars has brought them more need because of their loss — sometimes loss of belonging, loss of community, loss of warmth and generosity — and ego defenses soften. Pride softens. The missing of what was in India becomes more appreciation of what we had.

Now, I see more South Asians in the West seeking. Not necessarily knowing what they are seeking or where to find the answers, because we often name it as the externals. I am lonely and I miss community. I feel like I’m just surviving here, only here for work and wealth. I am tied to my routine of work and home chores. Sometimes even having to alternate between the anguish of having parents across the world and relief to be able to be independent and free with choices. Or whether immigrated, or even the ones born in the West, feeling a cultural or overall homelessness.

This is where I often share what’s missing — the nectars of India and also our ehsaas — the inner richness. It’s not just external circumstances. Because we can have everything the same or similar externally — family, friends, luxury of wealth, surrounded by others who are culturally similar — and still missing. Deep missing.

Many South Asians that I come across are seeking — maybe not consciously — but it is one of the reasons they come to work with me. To come out of the lostness of this deep missing that they can’t quite recognize exactly what is missing. To reconnect back into themselves, their nectars, and the feeler within — to be in the beauty of ehsaas again.

If this resonated — if you recognize this missing, this homelessness, this longing for your own nectars — I’m here.

This work is rooted in the Diamond Logos teachings of Faisal Muqaddam — a path that recognizes the essential qualities within us, like warmth, love, and inner richness, and supports us in reclaiming them.

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If this article resonated, you may also find support in these reflections:

• The Forgotten Strength of the Modern Desi Woman — on the embodied richness passed down through South Asian lineage, and how to reconnect with it
• Confusion About Love — on the unconscious loyalties that keep us from our own fulfillment
• Why Does Meditation Sometimes Feel Harder? — on what’s actually happening beneath the surface when your practice gets challenging
• Reclaiming Our Inheritance — a small gathering for South Asian and Middle Eastern women ready to remember and reclaim the richness of our Eastern inheritance