An Ehsaas — The Quiet Longing of Your Heart Underneath the Noise
Ehsaas — a word shared across Urdu, Hindi, and Arabic. Feeling. Felt sense. A knowing beneath thought.
It is so lonely, isn’t it.
You don’t even know what’s missing. You just know something is.
Maybe there’s a feeling — an ehsaas — somewhere in your chest. A sadness. A yearning. So quiet you almost miss it. So persistent you can never fully escape it.
You keep moving. Work. Family. Friends. Trips. Netflix. Anything. You may think – what’s the point of feeling it if you don’t know how to really have it, live it?
But the feeling doesn’t go away.
It never really goes away.
But the one in you who knows — your soul, your deepest self, whatever name feels right to you — has not forgotten. It speaks in silent whispers, trying to awaken you, trying to guide you back.
The pain is trying to tell you something.
The longing is trying to show you the way.
The yearning that is sometimes so strong it becomes unbearable — that is a signal too.
You are not failing.
You are being called home.
When you start to find your way back, it feels like taking a real breath for the first time in a long time. Maybe you will cry — not from pain, but from being touched again. From feeling yourself again. You don’t know what it is, but you can feel YOU. And you can start to see who YOU really are.
It’s not always easy, honestly. Sometimes this ehsaas is waiting to be felt, just under the busyness — internal and external — and you connect.
Sometimes you have to wade through the hurts. The tendency to disconnect. Learning how to quiet. How to listen to your body. How to be present in your life — with your partner, your children, yourself. Slowing the escape into deep breaths and feeling. Feeling your feelings again. Acknowledging the hurts. The broken-heartedness. The grief and sadness. The loneliness. The fear.
We take all of it — everything that is hard and heavy — and we work with it together, like a cauldron. The difficult material becomes the path back. The ego transforms. What was heavy slowly becomes something precious. In fact, most precious — that ehsaas again.
And when you feel YOU — it is like coming home. A home within you that nothing in the world provides.
Rest. Peace. Stillness. Love. A quiet joy, or an exuberance. Feeling loved by some unseen force. The passion for life returning. Everything looking fresh and new — with the innocence of a child and the maturity of an adult who has known both sorrow and beauty.
You start to remember: I used to feel this way.
The real home. You are being guided back to it.
When love finds its words, it’s beautiful. But when love connects deep in feeling, that is the true ehsaas.
This work is rooted in Diamond Logos teachings — a profound path developed by Faisal Muqaddam that weaves together depth psychology, spiritual inquiry, and somatic embodiment into something whole.
This is not about diagnosing or fixing. It is a reclamation. A remembering.
We work with what is hard and heavy in your life — not to eliminate it, but to let it become the doorway back to your preciousness. Your innocence. Your love, your joy, your passion, your wisdom. Who YOU really are.
This work is available worldwide, individually or in community.
A Deeper Understanding — For Those Who Want It
Being South Asian in the West can feel like a Picasso painting. We don’t always know where our ear is or our nose. Am I Eastern? Am I Western? What do I think and believe — versus what do I actually feel and sense in my body? This is the central challenge. How to bring together who you really are.
I moved to the United States at twelve years old. I didn’t understand or know what hit me, my parents, my family. Everything looked so good on the outside — good home, community, luxury, friends. So much to appreciate.
Yet the feeling of loneliness and isolation, the lack of warmth and belonging, the striving and efforting just to survive was so present. Not just for me and my family — it was with South Asians around us too. We couldn’t quite get it. It was like being a fish out of water, but one that appeared to be swimming in better waters.
That fish out of water feeling is what led me to my own personal journey over the last 25 years.
It was not until I had literally gone around the world in my inner world that I understood something: in the West, we forget the invisible strengths and richness of South Asian culture. This richness is embodied — often unconsciously.
And this is my passion — to help other South Asians reconnect with the resilience of the South Asian body and translate it into a more fulfilling life.
What do I mean by that? To notice and recognize your warmth and feeling of belonging — in your body. To understand that the struggles you may be dealing with are exacerbated because something that is natural to you — warmth, connectedness, embodied presence — is not met in the West.
But, it’s also not just in the West. This has become a global phenomenon – all over the world, we are facing more and more an inner disconnect and a disconnect in our environments.
That part of what you’re feeling, or unable to move through, is the experience of being a fish out of water.
The way back is through the body.
Think of it like a tree. Working on thoughts is like taking every leaf and modifying it. Working on feelings is like trying to improve the branches. The body — the trunk and roots — is where real change begins. And the South Asian body is naturally connected to the earth. More resilient than Western culture recognizes.
So we leverage the strength of your body — not only to address what is bringing you pain right now, whether that is relationships, divorce, grief, anxiety, or loneliness — but also to strengthen your connection to nourishment.
So the whole tree can thrive.
While my own story here is South Asian, I’ve come to recognize a real kinship between South Asian and Middle Eastern cultures — the same ancestral access to warmth, richness, and inner connection, even when each culture wears it differently on the surface.
Is your ehsaas calling for you?
Many of us don’t know how to listen to that quiet voice within — how to reach it. It’s not just you.
And, your ehsaas is waiting. It’s there.
If something in this calling is coming to life in you, I would love to journey with you — back to what you have always known, back to yourself.
Paths Back to Your Ehsaas
- Individual Sessions
One on one, 50 minutes, held virtually. Available worldwide.
Investment: $250 per session. A limited number of reduced-fee spaces are available — please reach out and we can have an honest conversation about what feels sustainable.
- For Women — Rediscovering Our Feminine Essence
A small group for women anywhere in the world, ready to explore this together. Not a therapy group — a space to reconnect with your depth, your body, and your essential nature alongside others who understand. Currently gathering interest for the circle.
At this time the group is open to women of all backgrounds.
If something in these words has touched you — even if you can’t explain why — that is enough reason to reach out.
If you are a California resident looking for somatic psychotherapy specifically — body-based clinical therapy for the struggles of daily life — you may find Somatic Therapy for South Asians a more fitting starting point.
